25th March 2009

12.41pm - sunny day in Penang

It's another LUNCH time for me. It was a very blur day for me today. Guess I didnt sleep well last night. Too much things for me to digest. Head spinning just like the entire earth had stopped. Is like the saying "Life is like riding a bicycle. You dont fall off unless you plan to stop peddling." How I wish I could stop peddling. Out of sudden, I feel very tired. I'm restless.

"A life is a simple letter in the alphabet. It can be meaningless. Or it can be part of a great meaning." Too much things to share, too much things to talk. But to whom? I didnt have any idea at all before this. But now I found a place to express what's my heart thinking to the "strangers". They dont know me and neither I know them. Even they are strangers, but yet they are friendly to share and advise. Based on their experiences. THis is something your real friend, family, and simply those around u could not help u a single. But they do.

Friends, they been telling me, NAH this not big issue. Just forget it... and go on with it. Come on, this is the only and best advise u can hear from your friends. But they will never know.. some great advise and motivation come from those that you dont know them. Is just like "Be a life long or short, its completeness depends on what it was lived for."

Everyone has their own very space. Everyone has things that not wish to be shared. Everyone has their own problem and life. Is like "Living without an aim is like sailing without a compass". Everyone has their very own dream and aim. I do have my aim too.

We tend to give up. We tend to fall. But we obviously, we need something, some kind of athmosphere to keep us going without stop. Of course, we need break. Everyone needs a break. Some became very successful, some failed. "Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they where to success when they gave up". We had to admit, as we are all human. We'll tired one day.

Everyone make mistakes. "Mistakes are a fact of life. It is the response to error that counts". How many of us, who actually understand the phrase? The statement of life? Do you? Even myself I cant be sure about it.

We take risk to minimised our mistakes. We hope it's not a mistake. We hope it's not the risk. We hope for the returns. "Risk must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing". We came to earth with nothing, we'll leave earth nothing too. "We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give."

Often you'll hear around. "If life gives us rocks, it's our choice whether to build a bridge of a wall." Everything, every decision, every movement, is actually by us. Ourselves. What I became today, is wat I did in the past. What I will become tomorrow, is wat I gonna to today.

We wants to make our life extraordinary. We just live once afterall. "Challenges are what make life interesting, overcoming them is what makes life meaningful." I remembered, when I was just a little girl, neighbourhood keep telling all kids, you have to study. Scores good result and of course become good kids. Who never heard this few statement before? Or perhaps, you heard more than I do.

Take a close look around you, when u go shopping, cinema, clubbing, yum-char-ing etc etc. What are those people that arounds you? Everyone been taught. Everyone knows the morale. But practising it, Yeah... there's the challenge. Before my point of age, current me. I do feel that all those were bullshit. It's said like never been said. But today, I finally learn to Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. So, it will never too late to look back. You may still expect the dawn of a new beginning in the dark nights of life.

The above is something I keep telling myself. and I did motivate some others. Hope all of us, will see a brighter sun, sparkling stars, breath the fresher air and drive on a smoother road & highway.. "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."